Dearest Father Love


Tomorrow Bill, Brook and I will be traveling to Hong Kong to see my father, who unfortunately has fallen terribly ill.  He is in the hospital, but there is nothing more that they can do for him.  My mother is there by his side, trying to nurse him with Chinese medicine and has been praying for him non-stop…with hope in her heart.

My father has been ill for a while and he’s been getting treatment, which has given him some time…but now I fear he is running out of time.  It is up to God now to decide.  I want him to see me and my family…to know that we are okay and not to worry.  I want him to know that my mother will be okay, and that I will take care of her.  It has been over 6 years since I’ve last seen either one of them (getting to the other side of the world has not been easy to do).  But I am able to go now…and I want to bring him peace.

Last night I was able to reach him by phone (my mother had to hold the phone to his ear so that he could hear me).  And although he could not talk to me (his cancer has spread to his lungs and he is on oxygen), I could hear him breathing as I spoke…and I could hear him trying to speak in response to the words that I so desperately needed to tell him.  I asked him to save his energy and not try to speak…I only wanted him to be able to receive my words of appreciation for him.  And to know that the love he has given me throughout my growing up years has been well received, and has been passed on to his granddaughter Brook.  His love lives within me and will live on within her as well…and it will stay strong and bright and beautiful, I promise.

My father (Reverend Philip Lee) spent his entire life as a pastor and spiritual leader…a devoted Christian through and through.  For over 6 decades he’s preached all over the States and has continued to spread messages of God throughout Asia and much of the world.  I so very greatly admire his deep devotion to God.

My father has taught me so much about the true meaning of life and all through example by living every day with love in his heart.  He has always been kind and compassionate towards everyone, and he always lent a hand whenever possible.  Growing up I watched him share his amazing gift of being able to move others to do the same.  My father’s light is giving and beautiful and warm, and I love him.

May the power of “one love” forever live on.

I don’t know if I’ll make it to my father’s side in time to see his sweet face one last time…I hope so.  Yet I trust that God will grant us whatever is best.  I trust this because it was God who gave me my father to begin with (he adopted me and brought me to America at the age of four).  I believe that this has all been for a good reason…and perhaps a more deeper understanding will reveal itself to me as I move through this marvelous life on earth.

May we each find peace on earth…and beyond.



35 Comments, Comment or Ping

  1. Praying for you and your family….praying many things.
    Safe travels and God bless you all.

    February 13th, 2013

  2. Jeanette in Illinois

    Oh Becky, I’m so sorry to hear of your news. Keeping you and your family in my prayers and sending traveling mercies to all. May you fly on the wings of angels to guide you on your journey to your parents. I will cradle your tender hearts gently in my hands and pray for strenght, peace and comfort.
    I have been where you are just a short time ago when I lost my Mom, I understand very well…
    Hugs,
    Jeanette

    February 13th, 2013

  3. laura huffman

    God’s speed. May your love and comfort give your parents strength. Praying for you and your family.

    February 13th, 2013

  4. Susan

    Becky my heart goes out to you. It is so very difficult to lose a parent. Your father is a good man and I am sure your words of appreciation and love meant everything to him. Love is the only thing you can leave behind on this earth and what great legacy it is to leave such a deep love in the hearts of others.

    February 13th, 2013

  5. may you travel on angels´ wings, Becky …

    February 13th, 2013

  6. ann marie

    Oh my gosh, how did I not know any of this of my friend? I am praying you will make it and praying for your family and praying for peace. Praying for whatever you need. Much love and surrounding hugs to all of you.

    February 13th, 2013

  7. Light and love live in our souls! He planted goodness within you~
    I so hope you get to be there for him and he for you, during this journey~
    Sending my thoughts n’ prayers to you and yours! I am so glad you were able to communicate with him-he knows your heart! Love is all there is…
    (((hugs)))
    Be safe!

    February 13th, 2013

  8. Safe Travels Dear. Prayers for your family. Blessings and Healing Hugs…

    February 13th, 2013

  9. Blessings to you and your family as you make this physical and spiritual journey.

    February 14th, 2013

  10. PATRICIA WOLF

    Hoping the best for you and your family…and my prayers. Safe travels.

    February 14th, 2013

  11. Mindy irwin

    So sorry Becky. This was a sweet post about your Father. Thanks for sharing. I pray that you and the family will have the best time with your Hong Kong family, even in these circumstances. God bless you.

    February 14th, 2013

  12. Travel safe Becky, I have been there with my dad and it is hard, take care of yourself. Your mom will be so thankful you are there. Di

    February 14th, 2013

  13. i am so very sorry to hear that your father is not well. i wish you God speed on your journey to china. many thoughts and prayers will be with you!!! blessings….

    February 14th, 2013

  14. Wendy

    Sweet beautiful written words for a special family….peace and love for you all.

    February 14th, 2013

  15. sherly G

    Praying for you and your loved one.

    February 14th, 2013

  16. Jani Howe

    My prayers go with you Becky, as you fly to your dear Father. You know he is going Home at last, may that thought give you strength in these coming days. God bless your family.

    February 14th, 2013

  17. Hope Amen

    Oh Dear Becky,
    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I know how great the impact of loosing someone so close can have. Putting your trust in God will see you through this time. Take it day by day. Find comfort in knowing that one day you will be reunited with your father again. How wonderful that he devoted his life sharing God’s love, grace, and forgiveness. He will be rewarded for his faithfulness. Love & prayers, Hope

    February 14th, 2013

  18. Sue

    Feel the love of today, try not to worry about tomorrow, you will get there when the time is right. He knows how you feel, it was great that you got to talk to him. I know what you are now dealing with and it’s true, one day at a time my friend. Feel his warmth surround you and let him guide you along this new path.
    Much love
    Sue

    February 14th, 2013

  19. Oh Dear Becky, my heart goes out to you and your family and I will be keeping you in my prayers as you travel across the world to see your Father. I’m so glad you got to talk to him before you left, and I do pray that you make it there before he goes on his new journey. Last spring, we made it to Florida just in time for Russell to say good-bye to his Father…I believe he waited for us. Love, hugs & prayers, Becca

    February 14th, 2013

  20. Becky
    At such times distance seems even greater but we all keep the hope that you will make it in time so you are able to be at your father’s bedside.
    Wishes to you at this saddest of times.
    Lynne

    February 14th, 2013

  21. I pray you are able to see your Father one last time.!

    February 14th, 2013

  22. I’m sending love and best wishes to you and yours. May you all experience peace and comfort during this difficult time…

    February 14th, 2013

  23. Tami

    Dear Becky,
    Such a very special post about your loving father, he is very proud I’m sure. Thinking of you and your family, hugs,
    Tami

    February 14th, 2013

  24. Praying for you and your family, Becky. Your sweet father sounds like an incredible man. What a blessing he must be! God speed!

    February 14th, 2013

  25. Renee Zarate

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family as you make this long journey. I’m so glad you will be there to give your mother your support during this difficult time. Big hugs.

    February 14th, 2013

  26. I am so sorry to hear that your father is so ill. I hope you will get there in time. Have a safe journey. Positive thoughts and feelings from me to you and your family.

    February 15th, 2013

  27. Christy

    Blessings and peace.

    February 15th, 2013

  28. I wish you good journey Becky. I hope you do get to see him, that you are there in time, but as you say, it will be as it should be.
    Life and love and relationships are never easy, never perfect, always beautiful.

    February 15th, 2013

  29. a heARTful life

    Your words, your heart is a beautiful prayer, dear Becky. I do hope that you will see your father but I also trust that you will continue to SEE your father as you have here in your post…that you will continue to feel the love that is real, enduring, palpable, ever-present, that which will continue to breath life in your heart, inspire you throughout your life. Much love to you.

    February 15th, 2013

  30. Sharon R

    Jesus is in control and will give you strength to carry this heavy burden, and safety as you travel to and from. Please keep updates as much as possible.
    Sharon
    Psalm 23

    February 15th, 2013

  31. Cindy

    I so hope that you will get to see your father. Have a safe journey and know that there are many here who are thinking of you.

    February 16th, 2013

  32. Linda K

    Dear Becky, please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Your loving father will always live on thru your love and memories.

    February 18th, 2013

  33. Oh Becky,
    I’m so sorry to hear that your father isn’t doing well. I know this post was written a while ago, so I don’t know what the situation with your father is now. But know that I am keeping you all in my heart and prayers.
    xo
    jeanne

    February 23rd, 2013

  34. Dear Becky

    I hope you were able to get to see your father. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

    Safe journey

    Billie

    February 23rd, 2013

  35. sarah webb

    peace and warm thoughts to you!! i lost my dad suddenly dec 18th and it has been horrible but he was a fixture in his society and loved by many!! his light and legacy will live on inside each of us that knew and loved him. may God give you the comfort you and your family need!!! xo

    March 4th, 2013

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